Wine-ing Down

The tortured law students are offered a short spring break. The bf and I took off to join my Dad and all our closest family friends in Oregon, then we drove onto Seattle, Washington. It was a really spectacular and relaxing break. Enjoy!

Courtside seats thanks to Jaimee

Wine tasting at the Wine, Pear and Cheese Festival

Brothers.

Willamette Valley Vineyards

The Sunset that night

Microbrewery tour in Portland, OR

We found the beach! Washington, Olympic National Park

Rainforest, Olympic National Park

Pike Place Market, Seattle WA

Pike Place Market, Seattle WA

The FIRST Starbucks, Pike Place Market, Seattle, WA

View from the Space Needle, Seattle WA

On the Ferris Wheel at the Seattle Harbor

View from the Ferris Wheel at sunset, Seattle, WA

University of Washington, Seattle, WA

OMNIPOTENT

At 6:30 am, I woke up to all my windows sounding like they were being bashed in. I thought I was being robbed. I grabbed Grey, my phone, and buried myself under the covers. It was around this time I realized that everything was shaking, not just the windows. That was when it dawned on me it was an earthquake. Grey was shaking pretty intensely. For a few minutes the shaking continued. Just like something out of a movie. I was scared and frightened. And then it was over. Minus a proliferation of Earthquake-themed Facebook statuses, life went on just like it hadn't happened. Certainly the 4.4 Earthquake was trending on social media and it was the top story on the news reels. But there was no difference in the morning traffic, no new color of the sky, no noticeable difference to anyone's behavior that last night they had experienced a very real, frightening display of the natural earth's scariest power.

It got me thinking about God. Sometimes when I am looking for direction, or when I am waiting on an answer to prayer, I think it would be pretty cool if instead of letting me wait patiently, he'd just speak to me in a burning bush (or burning palm tree). He could choose to lead me with a cloud of fire I begin walking the wrong direction, or to heal a sick friend before my eyes. He could make the wool outside my door step dry, but dew on everything surrounding it, when I am doubting Him. He could ensure that a rock and slingshot is enough to kill a giant opposing me, instead of letting me fight the battle on my own. After all, these are all things He has done before! Sometimes its easy to look at these great biblical stories and think, why doesn't He speak to us like THAT?

And then, you experience an earthquake and you think, oh, He most certainly could. Perhaps I should instead be thankful that he doesn't. He moves and shakes us in a different way.
Instead of it being Earth-shattering enough to grab my attention in my cloudiness, it is gentle. It is a whisper. Its on me, to clear the cloudiness, to be alert. It is my responsibility to change my heart so that it's beating only for Him.
When the waves hit my feet on the beach, I think about the ocean and its vastness as a symbol of His love, His omnipresence and His omniscience. Now, I'll think of the tornado, of the earthquake as symbols of His incredible power that out of his love, He moves us and shakes us gently.

Leap and the net will appear

“How can you sleep at a time like this? Unless the dreamer is the real you.

Listen to your voice, the one that tells you to taste past the tip of your tongue.

Leap and the net will appear

I don’t wanna wake before the dream is over

I’m gonna make it mine

Yes, I wanna own it.

I’m gonna make it mine.

I keep my life on a heavy rotation, requesting that its lifting you up, up, up and away and over to a table at the gratitude café.”

-Jason Mraz, Make it Mine

Driving on my gorgeous commute down PCH with the Pacific ocean in my left lane this morning, I had a realization. When people ask me what law school taught me, what I really learned, of course I can answer with torts or civil procedure or how to brief a case. But what it’s really taught me is how to get past something so huge that you never thought you could accomplish. There have been so many moments in the last year and a half where I’ve been nearly completely crippled by the recurring thought, “I cannot do this.” When not only could I do it, but I did.

This isn’t a post about all the spectacular things that I’ve managed to accomplish, but instead about what YOU can accomplish. For those moments when you think there is no clarity for the future, when you think that there’s no way something is going to work out, that you are completely incapable of doing what you’ve been asked to do, you are wrong.

As a few of you know, last semester left me feeling deflated, worked to death and quite unhappy despite an abnormal showering of blessings and joy. So, I decided to do something to fix it. I was annoyed at how things were going to work out, and with a lot of support from great people, good ole fashioned prayer, and a miracle of communication, the new plan is 1000 times better than the old plan. As a dear friend of mine reminded me a few days ago, it’s never a good idea to fall in love with your plan. Keeping that in mind, let me tell you, I am really in love with this plan.

I’ve accepted a job for June in Los Angeles working in legal aid, which is an area of the law I’m very passionate about. There are hundreds of thousands of people in Los Angeles who need simple, quick advice from an attorney and who cannot afford it. I’ll be helping ensure they have the opportunity to speak to an attorney for free, while also learning a little bit about practically every area of the law. I’m thrilled. It’s through an organization I’ve been volunteering with for about a year, and I know I have a lot to learn from those who have dedicated their careers to those in great need. As you may remember, I had planned on working for the Los Angeles District Attorney, and I am still doing that, but now in the fall.

What about July, you ask? Ah, now, here’s the big news. I’ve been accepted to a program in Madrid. Yep, the same Madrid that I’m madly in love with. Spain. A third (or sixth?) home. I’ll be taking classes for credit on European Union human rights and international law. I’ll get enough credits to hopefully be part time my last semester of school, which will give me even more time to job hunt.

I am sitting proudly at the gratitude café, and can’t wait for all the exciting things that lie ahead for the summer!

Leap and the net will appear.

I solemnly swear I am up to no good

I am juggling a few things, and it's not ready to be announced... but it is exciting.
So, look forward to it.

Is "tolerance" really our ultimate goal? I hope not.

Written in response to visiting the Los Angeles Museum of Tolerance, I thought I'd share because of how many of you are interested in my Holocaust studies and travels and how they have tainted me. It's long and a little heavy, but a few of you may be pleased I shared. Please leave comments!

My personal statement that I submitted to all the law schools where I applied included a description of the surprise on my friend’s faces my senior year of undergrad when I told them I planned to go to Auschwitz instead of joining their Caribbean cruise. After taking a course on the Social Conflict behind the Holocaust, taught from an interdisciplinary perspective, I went to Dachau, Flossenberg, Auschwitz-Birkenau. I visited The Anne Frank house, the Nuremburg Documentation Center, the Museum of Jewish History in Amsterdam, the Museum of Jewish History in Krakow, Poland, Holocaust Museum in Washington DC, and read many books and watched many movies. I belabored this point because I recognize that I am not the average guest at the Museum of Tolerance, but I was surprised at just how “dumbed-down” much of the material felt. For a catastrophe that has so many aspects—religious, psychological, sociological, criminal, international, cultural—it hardly scratched the surface! Perhaps it was because we had a guided tour and didn't have the opportunity to explore on our own. I understand targeting young audiences, and ensuring that guests who have never been exposed to the Holocaust can learn the foundation, but like a church sermon delivered on Christmas you need to also target those who are well-versed and offer them something to learn too—particularly because there is SO much!! I hardly know anything by comparison to what there is to learn. To give one particular example, although not dramatic enough to overthrow the entire power structure of any concentration camp, there are thousands of stories of resistance that explain why the death toll wasn’t even higher. Prisoners at Auschwitz managed to blow up one of the crematoria, a huge victory, which I couldn’t believe wasn’t mentioned in the “Resistance” portion of the museum.

For these reasons, I absolutely loved the hour we spent with a Holocaust survivor. His story is so remarkable and will certainly stick with me until the day I die. I have to believe that to hear a survivor is to become one. It was Ellie Weisel who said in the preface of his book that to forget is to kill them again. I am happy that museums like this exist to educate and to stimulate thought on such terrible mass atrocities that are committed in our world. I will always remember him being drafted into the Korean War, him telling of his son dying, and that the pain he experienced was not at all concentrated in that camp. Indeed, I have been forever impacted by the hour he spent with us.

We had a long discussion in the car driving back to Santa Monica about how we felt it was two different museums. One half confronts hatred and discrimination in our culture, in our community, in our hometown – no matter where in the US you call home. The other speaks to what has happened and what is happening outside the US, bringing up buzzwords like genocide, crimes against humanity, which are terms of legal and political construction. Is education on these issues important? ABSOLUTELY. Is awareness and knowledge key to preventing such unspeakable horrors? I certainly think so. But it takes more than tolerance. To speak on something very relevant, it takes more than lack of hatred or discrimination to support US troops invading Syria. It takes legitimate concern for the humans involved. It takes recognizing not only that those Syrians are your brethren as fellow humans, but a willingness to put your tax money toward helping them. It takes political leaders to disregard the economic advisor, to say that international law is limiting them from taking humanitarian action and advocating for that law to be expanded, and standing up to be a bold voice for HELPING those people as their advocate. Speaking to the point—that I felt the museum was directed at junior high field trips—the average guest cannot make the logical leap from what the Civil Rights Movement has in common with the Armenian genocide.

I will gladly dedicate the majority of my legal career to organizations that help and aid the victims of these atrocities. But I do not think it will be enough until we have BOTH the educational aspect teaching people to CARE and a mechanism that deters the perpetrators. The Holocaust essentially gave birth to the entire concept of international law. Even under international law today, Hitler could likely get away with much of what he did. Himmler, Heydrich, Eichmann potentially all could as well under the protective cloak of state immunity.

So, what will I do in response to what I learned and felt? I was inspired by the reactions of my classmates who have not been previously exposed to these things, their horror, their rage, their amazement. It reinforced the importance of education. But I was also reminded at a flawed international legal system that is not doing much to deter those in power to commit such disgusting crimes and does very little to protect their victims. And I am certainly more determined than ever that my entire legal career will be dedicated to these two concepts that will surely change the world for our generation and for seven generations to come.