Showing posts with label exhaustion. Show all posts
Showing posts with label exhaustion. Show all posts

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Navigating the chaos of tarmacs and baggage claim

Its been ages since I've had one spare second to write a post. I am finally back into the swing of law school and actually feel like I am a student again. The first weeks here were whirlwinds and it was all I could do to get myself out of bed and to where I was supposed to be, managing to read about 50% of what was expected from me. But get prepared for a series of great posts!

I went to Copenhagen with five fellow law students at Pepperdine who are also spending the semester in London. There was a spectrum of travel experience, ranging from one friend who has been to over 30 countries to one friend who landed in country #3 upon our arrival in Denmark. I can never appropriately reiterate how blessed I've been not only to travel as much as I have, and that most of that travel has been throughout Europe. Copenhagen has been somewhere I really wanted to go for quite some time and it did not disappoint. 

The highlights of the weekend were a canal tour through the city and endless wandering on accident because many canals left us at dead ends. 


In an outpouring of God's goodness, my boyfriend was offered a job in London next summer and they flew him out here for the weekend. We had a chance to do a few touristy things I hadn't done since I was in London a year ago. As he poetically point it, we took "a mile wide instead of an inch deep" approach, but had a lovely stroll from the Tower of London all the way past Parliament and Big Ben. It was wonderful to have him here and this whole long distance thing is old. Although it is not the end of our long distance chapters, as I have already accepted a job for next summer in Los Angeles and he accepted the offer to work here in London. The phrase "when you plan, God laughs" has never been more poignant. I'm so proud of him and thrilled for his incredible opportunity. 

Brian spoiled me by taking me to a sushi restaurant on the 38th floor of a building in the city center for our 1 year anniversary dinner. 





My schedule has never been crazier. Law school is no joke, and I am still expected to read about 100 pages of cases (tough reading) per day, plus working for a law firm, plus juggling any other responsibilities and expectations. Then I am traveling every three or four days to some places I've already been, and new lands I haven't yet seen. I get that not everyone would choose this lifestyle - the jetsetting, navigating the chaos of tarmacs and baggage claim. But I have no post code envy,  I love what I am doing, I love where I am at and I wouldn't have it any other way. It's likely that I will hit fifteen countries this year alone. I'm amazed at what I am learning, and its my sincere intention of carving out more time to tell you about it. 

As always, thanks for reading. 

Saturday, June 29, 2013

You can catch me on the 5:00 news


It’s indescribable, the Rwandan history and its ink-stain on the lives of these people. At the Rwandan’s core, they are survivors. They are battlers. The Spanish verb for “to survive” sort of means literally “live OVER” and that’s what they have done is live OVER years of pain and suffering and live THROUGH. It’s only mentioned briefly when it’s absolutely necessary, and no muzungu (white person) is stupid enough to be the one to bring it up. But it’s still very much so here, and it’s still very much a part of every day life. As, it should be.
Every day I stare into the obstacles preventing our office from securing perpetrator convictions and get so frustrated by the poorly written laws, the loopholes the perpetrators take advantage of, the lack of resources of the doctors who write the medical reports, etc. But, in fact, all things considered, it is simply miraculous that the country has anything organized, much less written laws or functioning courts, or a community spirit.

This morning, Carmen and I woke up at 6:30 am and walked along the deep red Earth (as Ann Voskamp called it) to the office. We were expected to participate in building a house as part of Rwanda’s Umanganda.

The last Saturday of every month, every single Rwandan is required to participate in community service. From 8 am until noon, no store or business is open, the roads are closed, cars must have an official government permit to be on the road and is required to explain to officers where the car is headed and why. If you do not come out from your house to participate in Umanganda, you risk getting fined. You’re required to work in your own neighborhood where you live doing something toward the development of the country- planting, watering, cleaning trash, sweeping, etc. Isn’t this the most incredible thing you’ve ever heard?

So IJM partners with other non-profits to do work outside of Kigali city in the poorer communities. I read that IJM was planning to send the director of administration for the day, and I invited myself. Jean Pierre was like, “you want to… go?” Carmen and I were like, “YES! Absolutely!” Shocked, as a grin started to grow on his face, he said, “Okay, be here at 7:15.”

In a typical itinerary in Africa, we didn’t build a house. We didn’t even almost maybe build a house. But we did do umanganda.

We joined about 1,000-1,500 Rwandans in what was chosen to be the “national project” for the day. The President attended, worked a bit and then gave a speech followed by singing of some Rwandan national songs. We first arrived to a huge mass of people, each carrying a tool of some sort. From IJM, each of us had a hoe. And not like a wimpy garden hoe you’d see in the US, a hoe that is serious.

We were corralled over to the women’s line where we were patted down, our bags inspected and then we were motioned over to a long line about 5 or 5 football fields long of people hacking away at the earth with whatever tool they brought. Along this dirt road of deep red, Rwandans were standing hacking away at an edge of dirt about 3 feet tall to a line floating above the ground pulled with string. We joined at the end of the line and were expected to begin. For the first minute or so, I just watched the man next to me. He lifted the hoe high in the air with both hands, and bring it down into the dirt and then just rip back as huge chunks collapsed and fell onto the lower section of dirt. Okay, I got this. So I did what I thought was the exact same thing, and not the smallest pebble of dirt even thought about moving. Hmph. So I did it again. Naturally, the guy next to me started laughing. He tried to teach me how, but I was simply incapable of investing 1/8 of the strength that he had. So I raked the dirt with the hoe instead. This, I could handle. About ten minutes later, but what felt like thirty, my hands were beginning to hurt, it suddenly felt like 100 degrees outside and it was time to do that whole hacking-away-at-the-rock-hard-dirt routine again. Not five minutes later did Carmen and I have an enormous crowd of onlookers, laughing, whispering about how pathetic muzungus are at doing absolutely any hard work. It was a scene.

The crowd of interested parties was boldly talking about us. Carmen and I were laughing at our own inability and pathetic-ness right along with them. I know how ridiculous we must have looked. It is worth mentioning that in five hours we maybe saw ten other white people, amongst a crowd of over one thousand. Because this was the national service project for the day, the mayors of each district of Kigali, members of Parliament, city officials, etc were there working too. Jean Pierre is the one who attends all the government meetings and deals with those sorts of things, so he introduced us to Mayors, members of Parliament all day. The Vice Mayor of Kigali, a very nice woman, came over to “teach us” how to do it properly. Five minutes later, JP was informing us that we were on camera. Sure enough, there was a huge camera held by a man with his “PRESS” tag and the Kigali major news network. They asked JP some questions about who we were and why we attended Umuganda. There we are, learning how to hack away at the Earth with the Vice Mayor of KIgali, barely managing to move any dirt at all, next to people on both sides just destroying it, with a HUGE laughing crowd behind us and a headline along the lines of “Expats join in at Umuganda.”

I’m not sure I was able to accurately describe this scene for you, but I hope you got a good laugh out of it. When we finally accepted that we were being of absolute no use to the project, our hoes got traded to others to work while we were allowed to rest. About every ten minutes, a member of the Rwandan national police or military official would corral those not working and move them to an area where they could be working. Military men and police had tools and spent their own share of time at work, too.

Apparently, the were pushing back the dirt and leveling more space for the road in order to build a gutter so that during rainy season, the water would drain appropriately. This will make a huge difference in that community for the road, but also because the rain water will drain into a well that can be used for drinking water in the well. I thought about all the non-profits boasting bringing water to African villages and laughed out loud and me, shamefully attempting to BE the person helping bring water to an African village, so unsuccessfully.

After about two hours of this nonsense, we all walked over to a large field and gathered to hear the President’s speech and his gratitude for Kigali’s people helping to develop the country. On our way back to the car, we encountered another news crew, a Japanese network. This time JP took over the interview and I’m just standing next to him, covered in dirt and awkward. So in theory, I will also be on Japanese news tonight!  

It’s pure genius, if you really think about it. Bring everyone together, do something good for your country, renew your spirit of patriotism, improve the place where you live. Free labor! And the irony of this monthly event—the community’s eagerness to dig this gutter for strangers in juxtaposition with such brutality against humanity just ten years ago—was puzzling to me. Perhaps this is how they’ve rebuilt, how they’ve found reconciliation. This is a quandary I cannot answer, but I was thrilled to participate and observe something so remarkable.

So, Los Angeles, all 4 million of ya, Umuganda?
Atlanta, umuganda?
I’m thinking, Saturday, July 27.
You will have to close your business for those four hours, no cars allowed to go anywhere. Let’s start small, nothing intense like forming a gutter by manual labor, you can just start by picking up trash in your neighborhood.
Oh, and you’ll be fined if you don’t attend.
See you there!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

by the hair on our skinny chin chins

Friday, I had the opportunity to go with a group of students to a nearby town called El Escorial. There is a huge monastery/palace there from King Phillip- the most powerful man in all of Spain's History. He led the Inquisition from the rooms that I walked through. The palace was HUGE and very impressive in every detail- like wooden doors handmade from 100 different kinds of wood and paintings by famous artists in each room. Ryan (the other auxiliar at JF) and I were talking to each other in English the whole time, guilty of not paying much attention to the guide and guilty of not interacting much with the students. It was a group of Bulgarians who are in Collado Villalba for a student exchange. Ryan and I barely managed to find the group in the first place that morning. As soon as we gave up trying to meet up (we didnt have any of the teacher's phone numbers or anything and we were suppose to be there at 9:30 and around 10:30 we decided to go to el Escorial on our own) they found us and got on the train we had just bought tickets to. It worked out nicely. I was so exhausted from a long week, my feet were killing me only half way through this enormous castle and this combination led to me barely paying attention. Luckily, I was technically at work so I dont think it mattered. And if it did, oooops....





After the longest tour of my life, Ryan and I were starving and feeling near-death with exhaustion. The kids pulled out sandwiches from their bags and started eating in the courtyard. Recognizing this meant not eating until the bus got back to Collado Villalba, Ryan and I thanked the professors, said goodbye to everyone and headed off to find food. We stopped by the bus station first to confirm the schedule Rick Steves lists to get to the Valley of The Fallen- a memorial for the Spanish-Civil War. Sure enough, Rick was right- he is always right so we grabbed a pizza at this wonderful little Italian place across the street from the bus station. My pizza was tomatoes, basil, mozzarella, proscuitto and olive oil- best pizza ever! We bought our bus tickets, climbed abroad and were at the Valley of the Fallen fifteen minutes later.
This moment completely blew my mind. This huge valley full of trees on the side of the mountain with a huge cross and huge memorial. It reminded me of something like you'd see in Washington DC but this one was full of religious statues. Ironically, Franco and the father of Facism are buried there with the 50,000 Spanish who died in the war. Does that sit well with you? Because I was filled with the eeriest feeling walking through this huge place. The 30 foot angels of death/facism looking down on me didn't really help.
The bus route only runs one time from El Escorial to the Valley. We got on at 3:15, we get back on at 5:30. There is not 2 hours worth of things to do at this momument. Luckily, it was nice weather so Ryan and I sat in the sun and chatted overlooking this gorgeous valley and then I decided to take a little nap. I woke up at 5:10 and we decided to head over to the bus. We see a bus and laugh at how there are probably a total of 15 people at this thing. Next thing we know, its 5:20 and a huge group of students speaking German boards that bus and it takes off. At this moment, we realize, "uh oh, that clearly isnt our bus. where IS our bus? where are all the people we rode here with on that bus?" I start noticing there are only 2 cars in the entire parking lot and I am having visions of sleeping under a tree at this place. At 5:24 or so we start walking and realize we actually have no clue where we are or where we are suppose to be. We are lost and our one shot off of this mountain cliff is leaving in 5 minutes. Panic totally started to settle in when Ryan spotted the bus up this small hill. We started running and boarded the bus at 5:31. We didn't even sit down before the driver was already driving off the mountain. Talk about a close, close, close call. Glad we went! Really glad we didn't get stuck there.